Saturday, July 14, 2012

Purpose of Trials?

2 Corinthians 1: 3-4 Praise God, the Father of our Lord Jesus Christ! The Father is a merciful God, who always gives us comfort. He comforts us when we are in trouble, so that we can share that same comfort with others in trouble.

Earlier this morning, I read this verse on a very special person's facebook page.  Later, I was baking cookies to take to a new neighbor in hopes of establishing a new friendship which I am in desperate need of.  The thought of my need for a new close friend naturally led to the thought of losing dear friends. As I sit here and think over my own life and at times I still think about the purpose of loss.  I don't know what the purpose is.  Yes, it is to teach us something and make us stronger but what if we don't ever know the lesson it taught us or ever feel stronger?  Perhaps, it isn't about us at all.  Truth is I don't have any clue.  And if you begin to wonder why others don't suffer the same losses and don't appear to suffer any loss at all it really becomes quite unbearable to think about.  Perhaps, one purpose is to help others through similiar struggles and to become more keenly aware of hurting and lonely people and soften our hearts to them.  I don't claim to know for sure, but the verse in 2 Corinithians provides a possible answer.

Sunday, July 8, 2012

Relying on Him...

Philipians 4:13 has come to my mind quite often this weekend.  I have 2 tasks ahead of me that I know I cannot do on my own.  The sad part is I will try.  I will forget to rely on Him and that I can do all things through His strength.  I wil attempt to carry it all on my own.  I must however remember to call on His strength to get me through. 

I am beginning a weight loss program tomorrow.  I have a pretty significant goal and while I am positive about it now and think I can do it, I know that come next Sunday when I weigh in and I don't lose the weight I think I should lose I will be discouraged. And of course there are the moments that I crave a food I know I shouldn't have and lose the fight against the craving that I will be discouraged.  But, I must remind myself to pull my strength from the Lord.  I can do this and I have to do this and the Lord will help me.

I also am preparing for a recertification test in October.  I feel overwhelmed.  There is so much information to cover and I feel like so little time to do it in.  I am so exhausted when I come home from work that it is easy for me to just not study.  Today I studied for a little over an hour and was supposed to study for another hour.  However, by the time I finished preparing my food for the above weight less program and bathing Spunky, I didn't have time.  I can do this and I have to do this and the Lord wil help me. 

Beginning of October is the time! Praying I meet my goals with weight loss and I pass the recertification exam. 

Can't keep up...

Well, this blog isn't working like it was intended to.  I intended to use it as a writing outlet for my thoughts.  Oh I think about it often but end up being too lazy to do it.  I feel like there isn't enough time for anything anymore.  It's all I can do to do the things I need to do like take a shower, brush my teeth, clean my house.  Is this the way life is supposed to be?  I don't know.  And yet I don't know how to change it.  What about my life could I not do in order to not feel overwhelmed?  Not working isn't an option although I wish it was.  However, I am thankful for my job and my income which allows me to live a comfortable life in a nice home with a cute dog.  So quitting work isn't an option.  Not sleeping at night also comes into mind however I don't think that is an option either.  Sigh....I suppose there isn't much I can do.  I will have to just look to the Lord for strength. 

Monday, February 27, 2012

Wisdom from Miss Piggy

I was sipping some coffee this evening (decaf of course and I don't typically drink coffee in the evening but had a craving tonight) and flipping through a Real Simple magazine.  They had a saying from Miss Piggy as a layout on one of the pages

"Beauty is in the eye of the beholder, and it may be necessary from time to time to give a stupid or misinformed beholder a black eye."

While giving someone a black eye is not a very nice thing to do, I can't help but chuckle at the quote.  And perhaps, I need to remember this more.  Of course I wouldn't literally give the person a black eye but if I changed my thinking and realized it was the other person's issue for not seeing my beauty perhaps it would change my entire way of thinking.  It's just a thought...

Sunday, February 12, 2012

I can still feel you...

I can still feel you just as close as skin
Every now and then
All by myself, in a crowded room, or my empty bed
There's a place you've touched
With your love no one gets close to
I can still feel you, I can still feel you, I can still feel you, I can still feel you

You said you'd love me forever
Then you said it's over
And left me without the missing link
I thought I'd forget you
But I guess I forgot to
And lately I've been too confused to think
When I reach for someone new
It's like I'm touching you

I can still feel you just as close as skin
Every now and then
All by myself, in a crowded room, or my empty bed
There's a place you've touched
With your love no one gets close to
I can still feel you, I can still feel you, I can still feel you, I can still feel you

In everything that moves
In everything I do

I can still feel you just as close as skin
Every now and then
All by myself, in a crowded room, or my empty bed
There's a place you've touched
With your love no one gets close to
I can still feel you, I can still feel you, I can still feel you, I can still feel you
Oh I can still feel you
-- Lyrics by Colin Raye

Thursday, February 9, 2012

Which end is up?

Which end is up?  My desk at work is buried in papers and projects that are half started.  I can't focus long enough to get things organized because I have so any things going on at once.  I come home and face the same thing.  I have papers all over my coffee table that need to be gone through.  Receipts to check against my credit card bill, bills to pay, etc.  I have so many little projects that I would like to get done but can't seem to get them done because when I get home I am so very tired that all I can do is walk Spunky, eat dinner, and sit on the couch.  I would like to run away for a few days.... I just want rest.  I want to be able to rest without something piling up.  Should life be this demanding?

Sick dog

Spunky came down with a cough on Tuesday.  I came home to find some throw-up and phlegm all over my family room carpet and Spunky making this terrible honking noise.  It scared me to death.  He finaly settled down but coughed on and off the rest of the night.  He was ok on Wednesday though he still had the cough.  I called the vet and made an appointment for tonight.  He seemed better Wednesday night but then started coughing more this AM and spitting up thick, white phlegm.  So, we went to the vet.  He has tracheobronchitis and has antibiotics and steroids to take for the next 10 days.  The vet also said that he is probably 8 years old or older based on the changes he sees in his eyes.  He also said that he has a heart murmur that is a 4 on a scale of 6.  We have to keep tabs on this becuase it can cause cardiomyopathy which could lead to heart failure.  I am a little sad over the fact that he is older than 6 and that his heart murmur is a 4 out of 6 but I can't worry about it.  I will just enjoy every minute I have with him.  I hope my baby feels better soon.  I hate hearing him cough.  He sounds so pitiful.